Wasting the Day in Bedlam/5

Please note: These entries were transcribed from illegible handwriting and the bracketed words may or may not be correct.

First month, 11th day, 28 ABY

Flimsiwork. I signed a lot of flimsiwork today, and [illegible] reviewed and signed some more. [Annual] evaluation and all that. Dr. Karastee has me scheduled for a psych evaluation. I told her that I don’t want [shocks].

I have heard bad things. Bad things about the shocks. [illegible] They make you different, change you. I don’t want shocks. They change you. Do bad things. I heard bad things and seen bad things. Gheeta’s [liquefied] corpse. Bossk eating his own father. I seen bad things. [Conspiracies] in the Guild. Bossk never found out. He would have killed [me] if he had.

Things happen whether I want them to or not. Meds making it hard to write. Very tired. Another inmate [threatened] to assault me in [the] shower. I don’t shower with the other inmates. The threat is only a [threat]. [It] won’t happen.

My head hurts. I should [sleep], getting hard to write. They didn’t give me time to [read] the [flimsiwork] I signed. Print too small, hard to read. What did I sign? I should ask to see what I signed. [Stuff] for psych eval, I think. What did I sign? It was a lot of flimsiwork. I don’t know what I signed. [Don’t] remember the meeting well.

Getting tired. Time to sleep. Side hurts from where meds injected. [Can’t] fight it. I can’t fight meds. [Just] can’t cut it. [illegible] Just [didn’t] cut it. I [can’t] write well. I need to go to sleep. [What] did I sign? No [shocks]. I don’t remember.

''Doctor’s note: As is evident by the increasingly disorganized thought patterns present in his entries, I had scheduled a psychiatric and medication evaluation for Zuckuss. He receives an annual evaluation in order for me to assess his cognitive and behavioral functioning, and to determine how his medication is working. As is evident by his increased confusion and withdrawal to past incidents, it is my opinion that Zuckuss would benefit from an adjustment in his medication and additional therapy options to prevent a total relapse. &mdash;Dr. Gawynn Karastee''