Wasting the Day in Bedlam/13

Please note: These entries were transcribed from illegible handwriting and the bracketed words may or may not be correct.

Second month, some day, 28 ABY

They shocked me again. Dr. Karastee then showed me a holo of the shocks. I still [don't] remember it. Dr. Karastee said that I did well. Did well? I hurt! I can't remember [illegible] what I ate today! And who are these other [illegible] doctors? Did well? I feel [sick]!

[illegible] I looked at a [previous] entry. I wasn't even [sure] where I was at then! How is this doing well?!

They said that the shocks would help me. [They're] doing more harm [than] good. I keep losing my train of thought.

4-LOM, if you're out there, if you remember me, I'm in Bedlam. Stop them before they destroy me. [Please].

Second month, whatever day, 28 ABY

Shocks again. Dr. Karastee said that I'll have three more rounds next week before they send me back to the [psych] unit. Why are they doing this? Will they let me go? If I allow them to shock me, will they let me go? Or will the shocks destroy me?

My head hurts. I can't remember how many shocks I [had]. My head [hurts]. This IV itches. Where are you, 4-LOM? I will find you. Stop them [before] they destroy me.

I [can't] think. I feel sick. My head hurts. If they shock me, will they let me go? Please let me go. No more [illegible] shocks. No more drugs. Just let me go. Please.

''Doctor's note: As is evident, the Corellian is not very happy with the treatment thus far, and Zuckuss has expressed anger and frustration over the confusion and memory loss. I told him that as the treatment progresses, the side-effects should become less severe. He just needs to go through this course for the full therapeutic effect.''

''In cognitive testing, however, Zuckuss is doing rather well. The treatment has not impaired his functioning and while he has some difficulty with concentration, he is able to stay on task when redirected. When I told him that he "did well," I was referring to that he had no complications during the treatment. And directly after the treatment, he would be woken up briefly to assess his cognitive function, and when asked his name and to identify certain people and objects, he would have no trouble answering. However, Zuckuss doesn't remember that part, as most patients usually do not.''

''If this treatment helps to send his schizophrenia into remission, I intend to work with Zuckuss to begin speaking with the parole board and have him start attending competency hearings. My goal is to eventually have Zuckuss be released. I don't intend to keep him here forever; just until he can prove to be a functioning member of society, with the support of the behavioral health services. &mdash;Dr. Gawynn Karastee''