Wasting the Day in Bedlam/2

Please note: These entries were transcribed from illegible handwriting and the bracketed words may or may not be correct.

First month, 2nd day, 28 ABY

That dreaded cough of his has once [illegible] again [illegible] returned. Then again, it [hasn't] really ever gone away, simply [lessened] in severity and frequency of occurrence. So, due to congestion in his left lung (and pain), Zuckuss was once again in the infirmary for an [illegible] inhalation [treatment]. The congestion cleared up, Zuckuss could breathe easier, and he was able to cough up the [mucous]. He was then allowed to shower. He uses an [airlocked] shower, so Zuckuss was [illegible] to breathe in the steam, which further aided in [illegible] opening his airways.

Zuckuss is still uneasy about what he had overheard the other [illegible] day; the discussion about the use of shocks. He had asked the mists to provide him with some clues, but they remain unreadable. His [illegible] medication hinders his meditations. He does not like that, being [unable] to [illegible] read the mists.

And he certainly does not like the [illegible] [side]-effect that [makes] his hands shake! He [can] barely write! He shakes like a palsy victim! He had requested to be put on different medication, or to be [taken] off the pills entirely, but the psychiatrists will [hear] none of it. "To quiet the [illegible] voices," they say. What voices? The mists are not voices! How dare they say such a thing! They simply do not understand!

Zuckuss has tried to explain it to them, but still they do not [understand]. They simply with to fill [him] full of pills. [Drugs]. The only solution for [them], these days. For all he knows, the drugs are to control him. They're trying to control him. Trying to control him by cutting him off from the mists.

[Ignorance]. That's what is is. They simply do not understand. Perhaps if they [knew] more [illegible] about findsmen, then they would [understand]. But, they do not. So they will [keep] filling him full of drugs.

But, the drugs [are] not working. They are not [illegible] controlling him [like] [they] want. So, they want to use shocks on him.

Zuckuss needs to get out of [here]! Zuckuss needs to find 4-LOM. And he and [illegible] 4-LOM need to stop them! Zuckuss needs to get out of here. The mists will show him [how]. He needs to stop the pills and get out of here and find 4-LOM and stop them. The mists will show him how. He needs to get out of here.