Wasting the Day in Bedlam/15

Please note: These entries were transcribed from illegible handwriting and the bracketed words may or may not be correct.

Second month, [illegible] day, 28 ABY

Next week are my last round of shocks, then I go back to my old housing unit. I had shocks today. My head [hurts]. After I woke up, I went to [use] the refresher and fell. My right arm took the brunt of it. I fell because I was still somewhat sedated and still had the muscle relaxer. And I didn't wait for someone to help me. So, I fell.

The attending checked me out and aside from a [sore] arm, I'm fine. Dr. Karastee told me to specify to the attending why I have breathing trouble at times, so I did.

Still tired from shocks. They gave me some medicine earlier, [illegible] it's making me tired. Now, an orderly is standing by. Well, it's a guard. That new guard from my [unit] is here. He's here to make [sure] I don't fall again. They say that I'm a "fall risk."

Meds making it hard to think. Why is the guard staring at me?

[illegible] Second month, [illegible] day, 28 ABY

The air in here is drying out my carapace, so I was given some lotion to put on it. My [carapace] [dries] out like [humanoid] skin, particularly in the winter. If I don't keep it [illegible] [moisturized], it loses some of its [illegible] give and gets brittle, especially around the joints. So, I put lotion on it. That [usually] helps.

It also makes my hands greasy.

That guard was watching me put on the lotion. Has he never seen a [Gand] before? Why does he stare at me? At least I didn't have to ask [him] for help to the refresher, as I didn't get shocks today. He doesn't [illegible] talk to me. Usually guards will talk to me, but this one doesn't. I have better conversations with the Uncanny One!

This [lotion] makes my carapace tingle. I like it.

''Doctor's note: I will need to speak with the guard on duty and request that he act a bit more personable toward Zuckuss, in order to avoid feeding his delusions. This is a common behavior for new guards, however; extreme vigilance, silence, and an overall sentinel demeanor. The new staff members take the inmates' records at face value, and while it is good to not become complacent with the inmates, a better rapport can be established if the guards treat the inmates as sentient beings.''

''Zuckuss hadn't fallen during his prior treatments, as there was usually an attending around to help him to the refresher. This time, however, he had woken up earlier than he usually does, and attempted to go to the refresher himself, while unfamiliar with the effects of the anesthesia and muscle relaxants. He didn't hurt himself, aside from some stress to his arm, but now I make sure that there is a guard present, in case Zuckuss requires any assistance. I explained to him that this is due to liability and insurance, and we need to ensure his safety, but he apparently did not recall that discussion. &mdash;Dr. Gawynn Karastee''