Wasting the Day in Bedlam/6

Please note: These entries were transcribed from illegible handwriting and the bracketed words may or may not be correct.

First month, 16th day, 28 ABY

Dr. Karastee spoke to me [illegible] today. I was [right]. It will happen whether I want it to or not. Dr. Karastee spoke to me today, in-depth discussion, and gave me some material to read. She needed me to sign a consent for treatment. We discussed the shocks. She listened to my concerns.

It will happen whether I want it to or not. That was what I realized when meeting with the group on [Circumtore]. That [was] what I realized when Fett had me locked in one of his cells on the Slave I. How did he think that cherade [sic] was going to work? He is [illegible] almost two meters tall. I am barely a meter and a half! So he suits me up in his [illegible] armor and thinks everyone will fall for it? The armor doesn’t even FIT ! Pretentious bastard.

I couldn’t protest as Fett had me bound and gagged proper. The helmet was [illegible] awkward and [restricting] and the codpiece dug into my [illegible] groin. The [gauntlets] slid all over and the [illegible] armor didn’t fit. It was obvious, painfully so, that I wasn’t Fett. Yet, Bossk fell for it. Says [much] about Bossk…

It will happen whether I want it to or not.

Was that a [gunshot]?

Shakedown on another yard. Must be.

I should finish this. Meds making it hard to write. I signed the informed [consent] for treatment. Dr. Karate [understood] my [concerns] and gave me material to [read]. It will happen [whether] I want it [to] or not. I am still scared.

''Doctor’s note: As was mentioned, I had discussed some treatment options with Zuckuss, including additional programs and the use of electroconvulsive therapy (the shocks, as he terms it). Such therapy is not a first line of treatment for schizophrenia, and to administer it requires the patient to sign an informed consent, and thus today’s meeting was spent discussing the matter. Zuckuss had expressed his concerns, based largely on the public suspicions of the often controversial treatment method. However, I had explained to him in great detail that a number of protocols are in place to ensure his safety and that ECT is only being considered because after three years of little to no success with drug therapy, and due to the constant derailment of his thought patterns, it is in my opinion that he would benefit in a shorter amount of time from ECT than he would from yet another course of drug therapy that could prove to be ineffectual. He will continue the current drug therapy, and continue cognitive and behavioral programming, but the usage of ECT should prevent a total relapse into a possible psychotic episode or even catatonia.''

''I had provided Zuckuss with a large amount of material to read on his own time, including patient statements from those who have received ECT. I have asked him to focus his journaling on that, on how he feels about it, both prior and after the treatment. &mdash;Dr. Gawynn Karastee''